Have felt kind of shitty all day. Was woken up just before 12 by Sam ringing me to apologize for shouting at me on the phone last night in aggressive/drunken manner, and to ask me if I wanted to meet him after he finished work today. Had a bit of a headache and felt slightly nauseous so couldnt really stomach breakfast, but felt moderately better after I'd had a shower and washed my skanky hair.

Spent all afternoon lying on the sofa reading alternate chapters of 1984 (which I already read ages ago and loved, even though it is pretty grim and depressing), and a Handmaid's Tale, which I'm sure will be very interesting, but I saw the film of it in English the other day and found it TRES HORRIBLE, in particular the bits where she has to have sex with the commander, and the bit with all the hangings, etc. Have already found loads of similarities between the two, so coursework should be EASY PEASY.

Just before I had to go out to meet Sam at four I got really bad period pains, and although I took tablets, they didn't go away and had to walk all the way back to Sam's in TOTAL agony. Lay on Sam's sofa feeling like shit with Freddy (his dog) on my lap, who strangely helped soothe my pain; normally when I have pains I use this thing, it's like this pillow case filled with oats or wheat or something, and you heat it up in the microwave and you put it on your tummy, and it's meant to help soothe the pain a bit. Freddy is warm and fluffy, and curls across my tummy a bit like the oat bag thing. So he helped take some of the pain away. But I still felt quite nauseous. Sam gave me lots of cuddles to cheer me up and eventually the tablets started kicking in a bit.

BUT

The pain is back now :[ Feel really yucky and sicky and my dad is sat eating the Father's day chocolates I gave him earlier, making loads of chompy, slurpy noises, which is really grossing me out. Uggggghhhhhhh. Think I am going to go to bed.