Collection of thoughts for the day:

1) OMG people actually read my blog?! I thought 8 visitors on my first day was a fair amount considering I didn't have an awful lot to say, but I was very shocked with the 22 I've had today, and some of these people visited twice! My main thought on that is wtf why?!! I'm pretty sure if I was browsing through, I wouldn't bother to read this blog, I'd move onto the next one... Still, none of these people have left comments, so my 'popularity' isn't known to the general public!

2) Why can I never find any clothes in my size? I have been lusting over a blue and white summery dress from New Look all week, which I planned to pay for with my weekly wages driving lesson fund. It has taken me three visits in one week to find this dress in my size; I swear this was never a problem when I was fat; the rails of New Look are always full of size 16 clothes but scantily clad with size 8 clothes. Not that I'm complaining about my weight loss, I just wish that I didn't have to ask shop staff the exact days and times at which they get their stock delivered, just so I can secure ONE SINGLE item of clothing in my size.

3) I am fat/sturdy/chunky. Yes, I am now a size 8 and have a smaller waist measurement than most of my friends, but I still swear that I am fatter than all of them put together. Yes, I eat nowadays, and yes I know I'm being ridiculous, but with everything that happened last year, I know some of it is still there, and I can't shake it away. I've had a couple of relapses this year, and I don't want that to happen again, but I'm worried that it will, because I've been feeling very unattractive this week. Think I need to get back to the gym to regain my confidence; am going back Monday, as I FINALLY renewed my membership yesterday, so hopefully I'll get myself back on track.

4) OWWWWW! I had this thought at several occasions during the day, for example my bath this morning, trying on the dress in New Look at lunch time, and every time Sam gave me a cuddle/put his arm round me this evening. Feel like my shoulders are on fire. Do not own any aftersun, and apparently we do not sell aftersun at 'nameless local supermarket', so have been frantically applying any kind of moisturizer I can find in my house, in the vain hope that this will take the pain away/I will go brown and cease to look like a boiled lobster.

5) Ffffuck, exams! This thought only occurs occasionally, and only for a split second. I sometimes catch myself and think 'Oh dear, I actually haven't done any revision yet and my exams start a week from today and I am probably going to fail', but most of the time I seem to think 'Fuck it, I can always work at 'nameless local supermarket' for the rest of my life!'

6) I really need to get to bed earlier. No wonder I feel like death warmed up every morning.